Saturday, June 23, 2007
Have been really busy with work recently.. :( the loreal job really tires me out. Today i had menst cramps and i smsed ***( the in charge of the promoters) that i couldn't go for work today. UNSURPRISINGLY, she smsed back to ask me produce a MC if not i risk all my commission gone. Menst cramps go see DOC and waste 40 bucks ah?! and by the time she said this, my cramps already all gone.Guess what i did in the end? IGNORE HER. she is such a bitch sometimes. ( *ahem* i must correct and say " ALL THE TIMES" instead. ) She sounded unhappy when i raised questions and was very sarcastic when replying. sometimes i wonder how she got the HR job when her attitude towards promoter is so bad!
Actually the only thing i feel blessed about this job is to get to know helen, natalie, siree and most importantly GEANNIE!! omg. helen and geannie is so my type.. we are like so so auntie and we eat so much, shop so much and talk so much! i love both of them so much!They are the only pillars of support pushing me to go to work everyday.
i have been thinking alot about my relationship recently. Do i really love my bf or is it cos of the "3 years effect? " Yesterday when i talked to geannie on the fone, the confusion regarding my relationship once again appeared in my mind. Sometimes when i think back about the past, it seems as though i cannot forget about my ex bf. BUT at times, i feel i love my bf too for everything that he have done for me.
Although quiet, he makes it up with his sweetness.
When i am down and dying of menst cramps, he will visit me with my favourite food.
He will buy AMK rojak and BA KU TEH to my house when i have cravings.
He will volunteer to pay half of my lemmings with his pathetic army pay.
He will listen to this tigeress roaring when i am mad, and his quietness calms me when i am upset.
No matter how tired or sleepy, he makes sure he sees me once or twice a week.
If i complain he is unsweet, he will immed think of ideas to make things right again.
Most importantly, he cares. He really cares. I don't think i can find any other person as good as him . What geannie said struck a chord inside me. It is always good to find someone who loves u more than you do. I rather be a domineering idiot than be a fearful pussy.
today i went to geylang again!!hee. to eat good food la!
that is me in my new grey dress! hee so flowery
me and my sis!
Saturday, April 28, 2007
omg. this is the 3rd time i am having a personal blog. I rem the first time( around 3 years ago) i set up a bloggy to pour my sorrows about this guy i realli like alot~ i slowly closed the blog down cos i moved to blogspot. 2nd time was to voice out my unhappiness in NJC but i closed it down again due to a flamer . Now, this time, the reason for setting up this blog is just for fun :PRecently i caught the show 200 pounds of beauty on crunchyroll.com. It is really sweet and it sort of moved me to tears. The movie is about this 200 pounds girl(Hanna) who is in love with this song director and the 200 pounds girl is the voice behind the famous singer. Together, the director and the singer made use of the 200 pound girl to make money. Finding out, depressed, the girl tried to commit suicide but failed and decided to go for plastic surgery instead. POOF.. she became a 100% beauty and after that.... u gotta just watch for yourself!
can i just say kim ah joong is the most chio girl i have seen in this month?? she is damn talented!!! can sing and LOOKS so beautiful even when crying.. i totally melt when i see her cry!! her eyes are so expressive.. it just is SOOO beautiful!
KIM AH JOONG!! OH I LOVEEE U!! :X
ELEGANT GLAMOUROUS!! CHIOBU!! how i wish i was her!
This is a really good movie!!! after watching, i strongly believe that beauty is only skin deep and what matters is the inner self. However, i dun think any guys stick to such mottos. All of them sort of made a excuse by saying " oh .. i go for inner and OUTER self " which means that they STILL look at outer or look at outer first before discovering the inner self.
actually i dun understand the obsession with beauty. Admiration is definitely ok and i definitely do admire beautiful + intelligent girls but i definitely despise guys who just go for looks. They live on looks, go for looks and totally ignore everything except for looks. They insult those without looks and those with looks, their so called wad pathetic inner self is 1000% magnified by their outer beautiful face. Guys like such exist everywhere and i have seen many many for myself.
OH YES! i have to announce i love korean songs. I am totally immersed in this lovely language.. their language is like music to my ears..
The song playing now( BYUL) is by the female lead KIM ah joong
a MV on the song ->
Youme - Byul (Star)
the wind is shaking the windows, and over my small room,
the stars fill up the sky, shining brightly
too many to count, the stars reassure tired me
they wipe away the many tears that are deep inside me
don't be hurt too much..they hug me tight and pamper me
and comfort me, telling me to go to sleep
though I'm exhausted to the point where I can't walk
though my tears blur my vision
I'll still smile in front of my love that I'm not able to get
Even though our happy times were short, I'll treasure it deep inside my heart
like those countless number of stars, forever
My dream is coming. though it is unusual that my one star is bright
it is very bright, even blinding..it comes down to my shoulder
stop being so sad..it holds my hand as it touches me
and gives me a warm hug
though I'm exhausted to the point where I can't walk
though my tears blur my vision
I'll still smile in front of my love that I'm not able to get
Even though our happy times were short, I'll treasure it deep inside my heart
like those countless number of stars, forever
Only for today, I won't cry though my eyes fill with tears
I want to laugh like those stars
Oh~ I want to cherish all my happy moments deep inside my heart
Like those countless number of stars, forever
oh yes.. talking about this movie, it also touches on how hanna changed when she became a beauty. She neglected her friends and her best friend sort of distanced from her.. Friends are definitely the most important part of a person' life especially me. I really treasure and love all my friends, especially those who stood by me during the harshest part of life.
For me, i sort of had a regret about a friendship. A really long friendship that tugs at my heartstrings. A friendship i neglected, ignored and didn't treasure. She stood by me during the early years in my life. But i didn't treasure and i rem clearly that time when i told her " let not be friends anymore" , she cried. Now she has distanced from me, leaving me further and further. I really miss the close relationship we had, the fun, the joy. I miss her. Even when my friends ask me who are my best friends, i always name her as my best friend. 15 years is not a small sum and now, i really treasure her. she has been with me since k1 till now and in my heart, she is always and forever my best friend :)
PS: if you are reading this, do forgive me for my wildness. i will always love u still babe! *serious! *
yday, i went for golden mile steamboat with my fam and grandparents. My grandma has contracted cancer and dad wanna make her last part of life more meaningful , so recently he keep bringing my grandma out for dinners . Life is so short!!!!i feel sad thinking about how soon my grandma going to leave us.
Me , my sis and my boi in car making funny faces :P
me and my boi.. haha~ he seems so BORED
hehe. can see that we are hungrily snatching for food!
can i say that this satay is damn nice.. *drools thinking of it *
a family pic! my mom, dad , grandpa, grandma,sispig and me!
YEAH!!our hungry conquest!
omg. it is 2 am now.. i am off to sleep! tomorrow up for another dim sum conquest!
MY BDAY IS COMING ON MAY 4th!!having a party at chalet at coasta sands 6.30 pm!SOO excited about it..
till then~!